Celestial Lunar Oracle ring with deeply antiqued sterling silver, white topaz accent.
My entire life is basically a constant struggle between wanting to sleep more but also wanting to fulfill my responsibilities.
And if I’m going to fulfill my responsibilities i’d like to look like a self aware human being.
For me, makeup means I’m going to interact with the world. When I don’t have it on, I’m not truely present because I haven’t had the the time to build the face that society will see. I lack control. The true me is lazy and tired a lot, and likes to lay around and play video games and watch tv and wear T-shirts and do endless pointless research on the internet. I like learning about interesting and pondering and contemplating. And when I don’t have makeup on it feels like because I haven’t taken the time to be aware of the fact that others will see me, and thus exist, I’m more prone to daydreaming and not interacting with others which is why I quite like to have it on. There are very few people I feel comfortable with without it. My brothers and my boyfriend and my parents to be honest. Because these people don’t need any assistance in knowing me. They know me the best and accept me with or without an inviting face.
In fact my brothers seem to hate when I wear makeup and my dad often thinks I wear too much.
But I also enjoy makeup because it’s simply fun. It’s like painting a picture and I enjoy creating an image for the day.
I don’t know I have no idea how I got off on this tangent but I make myself uncomfortable because I don’t want people to think I’m pretty when I wear makeup, I just don’t want them to see my raw face…? And I’m afraid it means I care what people think and that is something that I really need to work on. Because for all the misanthropic feelings I experience, I sure seem to care an awful lot.
A RARE ART NOUVEAU DIAMOND, OPAL, HARDSTONE AND ENAMEL PENDANT, BY GABRIEL FALGUIERES
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